An October Coffee Date

coffee date

Join me, won’t you?

It’s been a quiet week on the blog front. An unintentional blogging vacation, if you will. However, this has meant it’s been an extra loud week in my real life and in my mind. I know I could use a sit down with a good friend, so I’m turning to you, my treasured blog friends for a little coffee date to share what’s been on my heart and mind.

If we were having coffee, 

I’d love to try a new local coffee shop. I’ve been having trouble finding one to be able to sit down and just “be” in, but I’m working on finding it. I need a new place to clear my head, my emails, and my workload. I’d order a hot chocolate, as I’ve been drinking too much coffee at work lately. I want this time to be more calm and relaxed and hot chocolate is perfect to just make me happy.

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you-

Teaching is hard work. 

This job, oh this job. There is so much to it. So much. Teaching in general is hard. Teaching special education just adds a whole new level. The politics of public education, of course, don’t make things easier, but if I can just get past this hump of being a first year teacher and doing things wrong so I can see it and fix it, things have to get easier, right?

Some days are harder than other days, but each and every day I come home exhausted. Emotionally, physically, mentally. There is just so much to be done. So much to do, so much to feel, so much to think. I can’t help but be overwhelmed on a daily basis. I never feel like I’m doing enough, despite doing as much as I can as fast as I can.

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you-

I love this job.

With my whole heart and soul, I love this job. I love these kids. They make me laugh every. single. day. The exhaustion, the overwhelming feelings, they are all 100% worth it. The other day, one of my babes realized that these letter things we were working on and the sounds went together to make WORDS. They can do together and they represent the words we speak! This is HUGE in my world and I’m big on celebrating accomplishments, so this breakthrough made me want to throw a whole party. I seriously couldn’t be happier when I’m in my zone in the classroom.

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you-

I am going home. 

Home! To Idaho! For Christmas! I’m so excited to be taking a trip back home to my family. Just having the trip to look forward to makes everything seem like it’s gonna be perfectly ok. My family is everything, y’all. And Idaho will always be home. (Or, at least one of my homes) I guess this is a part of growing up, learning just how much home really means and how much my sweet family has really given to help me get to this point in life. I miss face to face talks with my mom desperately, and all night cuddles from the puppies is just what the doctor ordered to cure any kind of ill.

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you-

Chicago is growing on me.

Little by little. I have been SO in love with Atlanta that giving any piece of my heart to Chicago has been hard. It seems- bigger. Which I realize is strange because Atlanta is huge too. But it seems bigger and dirtier and just… not right. I’ve been a bit bitter toward this city since moving here. I’m learning to see the beauty in the community in which I live and work. I’m beginning to look forward to seeing the skyline all lit up on my way home from grad school classes. I’m beginning to look forward to exploring on my own over the weekends. I’m settling into my apartment, finding ways to make this shared place equally mine. 

We still have a long way to go in building our relationship, but this city and I, well, we’re learning to live with each other.

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you-

I have some excellent friends. 

 I am the luckiest woman in the world when it comes to having good friends. From Idaho to Atlanta to Chicago and abroad, I have been truly blessed in this department. I have such understanding and giving people in my life. I have seen them give of themselves in every way and continue to be impressed by the lives they are living. 

This includes blog friends, of course. It may only be some emails, gchats, and keeping up with each other’s lives through words shared on the internet to some, but it’s so real. I truly treasure the connections blogging has brought me, and can’t wait to get more into this little space of mine.

If we were having coffee, I’d say-

Let’s do this again soon, ok? 

I needed to share these things, and I’m so glad you took the time to sit with me and talk through them. I treasure these moments. Let’s make a plan soon.

Now tell me, what’s been weighing on your mind? On your heart? What can I help you talk out? How can I best listen to you so that you feel a little lighter leaving than you did coming in? Let me know in the comments, or drop me an email. I’d truly love to know what’s going on in your lives!

 

31 thoughts on “An October Coffee Date

  1. Natalie

    Loved this post! I never taught in public school, but I did teach at the college level for four years and at a k-12 homeschool program for another two. Being a teacher is tough–and being a special ed teacher takes a special, gifted person. You are awesome to do what you do! 🙂

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  2. Megan

    As another first-year teacher, I get this coffee date. I struggle with so much of the same things- making mistakes just so I can see them and fix what I did. I love my kids, all 30 of them, so much though.

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    1. Destiny Post author

      Exactly! My kids are the absolute best (I’m totally biased here, haha) and all of the struggles are worth it! Good luck on the rest of this year!

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  3. alyssa

    I’m in college right now to be an elementary school teacher. I’m so excited for the day I actually get to teach my own class but at the same time I am terrified I won’t get anything right! I’m glad you find joy in it! <3

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    1. Destiny Post author

      It’s totally ok to not know what you’re doing the first bit- no one really does. But you learn quickly and just learn as much as you can so you can best serve your kids! It’s such a great and rewarding job to do 🙂

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  4. Emilie

    If we were having coffee together, I would tell you that I think a lot about my students when I’m out of school. We just want the best for them and that’s why we put so much heart into what we are doing! Love this post!

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  5. Chandra

    I applaud for teaching. I feel like teachers are so unappreciated, at least in the Texas school system. I did move a lot for my career when I was your age and even though it was tough and I missed my family so much it was one experience that I would never change. I learned who I was, and what I wanted in life. That turned out to be back in my hometown and married to the love of my life who also happens to be my high school boyfriend. We also have a little messy reason to get up every morning I like to call my daughter. Everything always turns out as it should.

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    1. Destiny Post author

      Thank you so much for commenting! How inspiring to know I’m not alone in going through this season of life. It seems like it’s a big confusing time, but like you said, I am learning so much about myself and what I want. We’ll see how it all turns out in time, I suppose!

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  6. Andi

    Love this post, very original way to let people know what’s going on in your life! Chicago is one awesome food town, but I have not been there for a winter, however if your family is from Idaho I am sure you are used to the snow!

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    1. Destiny Post author

      Thank you! I am used to snow but from what I’ve been hearing winter here is even worse. We’ll see how it goes!

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  7. Susannah

    I’m so glad you’re loving your job, even though it’s so hard! I’m always so impressed by people like you who spend all day with children with special needs! It really warms my heart.

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    1. Destiny Post author

      Thank you so much! These kids are really just the greatest, they make it an easy job to love (even though some days it’s SO hard!)

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  8. Anne

    Destiny,
    I love this post. I am a sophomore in college majoring in special education, and I also am contemplating starting a blog. After reading a couple articles about blog tips I thought maybe this is too much work, but then I read your article Just Show Up. You made me realize that I just need to try. Writing a blog is something I want to do. I shouldn’t let my fear of failure and the judgment of others about what I write hold me back. Thank you so much! I admire that you are a special ed teacher. I know it can be tough. I have a brother with low functioning Downs syndrome and sometimes it can all just be so draining. Yet I wouldn’t have it any other way.

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    1. Destiny Post author

      This is just the best comment I ever could receive! I’m so glad that my blog could help you find some motivation and inspiration! It is a lot of hard work, but it is so worth it. If blogging is something you want to do, go for it! It’s such a fun and expressive hobby to have, and it’s a great release at the same time. I love teaching special education. My kids are absolutely the lights in my life and I love going to work every day. It’s exhausting and so much work but it’s the best work. Let me know or shoot me an email anytime if you want to talk about it!

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