One of the Hardest Decisions I’ve Ever Made

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A year ago today, I packed up my car with all my things, hugged and kissed my family and pets goodbye, and got in my car to drive to Atlanta. I had no job prospects, a friend’s couch to stay on (thanks Meg!) and really just a dream and a desire to get out of small town Idaho.

This decision didn’t come lightly, though it was made quickly. I knew I’d have to leave soon to not be driving through the snow and ice of winter and I needed to move fast. So I did. Packed my car full up and that was that.

Leaving my family, and especially my father, behind, was the most difficult thing I’d ever done. Of course, I knew I could always come home, but something about this particular move felt more final, more real. And in a way, it has been.

It meant not seeing my family for Christmas. It meant going through life without the safety net of my family or college around. It meant, for the first time really, that I was on my own. At the beginning of the year, I made it my mission for the year to THRIVE. And with that in mind, I’ve done everything I could to do just that. I got a good job, an apartment that felt like home, and kept on moving.

Then Teach for America came up. I saw the opportunity and I grabbed it. I put everything I had into my application and throughout the interview process and came out with my dream job opportunity- though that again meant leaving everything behind in the life I had then created in Atlanta.

I got accepted and saw my placement- Chicago. I was, all at once, both excited and terrified for what was to come. As the horror stories came my way- so did the stories of great joy and accomplishment. I knew this was what I wanted- even if it did mean coming here to the land where there is SNOW in OCTOBER (!!!)

Moving again was not taken lightly. But it was necessary and since the day I got here there’s been no turning back for me. I 100% love my kids. I love the culture we’re still creating every day. They are absolutely the lights of my life.

And to think, it all started with a decision that where I was wasn’t getting me to where I wanted to be.

A decision to hop in my car and drive straight across the country to the unknown.


7 thoughts on “One of the Hardest Decisions I’ve Ever Made

  1. victoria

    wow! good for you!

    i have thought about Teach For America the last couple of years as it has been so disheartening and hard to find a real teaching job….

    i am in the chicago area,too!

    happy holidays!

  2. Tabitha

    So good. What resounds with me is that you MADE the decision and then you FOLLOWED THROUGH. Gosh, that is so much easier said than done – so props to you for that. I am in the season before making a decision, and I can only hope that I will be as brave.

  3. Sara

    I’m popping over from the coffee date link up and wanted to tell you how much I am in awe of your courage. I’m from Chicago myself and know that I’d have an incredibly hard time adjusting to life in small-town Idaho (small-town anywhere, really!) and can’t imagine the courage it took to come here. Not to mention the fact that TFA Chicago puts you in some rough schools!! That took guts, lady. Hope you had a great holiday!!

  4. jenna @ dearest love

    Wow, what an inspiration you are! How brave of you to take such a huge risk and just go for it!
    I’m sort of at the same crossroads…I won’t be leaving Atlanta, but a career change of sorts. It’s scary, but I know it’s where I’m supposed to be! This post really has encouraged me, Thanks for sharing!

    Also, thanks for linking up with me for the coffee date! I have a feeling we’d chat for hours. 🙂

  5. Amanda

    You’re so brave! It’s really scary to go somewhere you don’t know, but it can be so much fun. That’s how I felt when I moved to Oklahoma and didn’t know anyone, but now I’m here and I love it 🙂

  6. Allie

    Hi Destiny – dropping by to say hello! It takes so much guts to pack everything up, leave behind your comfort zone & just go for it! Congrats! I recently moved (not very far) but learning a whole new city, meeting new friends, adjusting to a new community is exciting & scary, BUT SO WORTH IT! Have a great weekend love!


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