My goodness. This super blood moon thing has me all sorts of mixed up and struggling today. I know I’m not the only one who has those times where I’m just going through “the struggle.”Mostly this means making hard decisions or really adulting.
A lot of times, my thought process goes like this:
Kinda wanna work out, kinda wanna take a nap.
Kinda wanna go out, kinda wanna stay in my yoga pants and watch Netflix.
Kinda wanna be around people, kinda don’t wanna talk at all.
Kinda wanna start dating again, REALLY don’t wanna deal with jerks.
Kinda feel like I should post an Instagram post because I haven’t in 1058329 days, but I haven’t taken any fun pictures lately.
Kinda wanna get a hair cut, kinda want to grow it out.
And the ultimate: Kinda wanna get out of bed and get a drink, can’t move the comfortable cat laying on my feet.
So what’s your #TheStruggle ? I feel like that might be one of my most used hashtags on Twitter just because I know someone will be able to relate!
Note: This post was sponsored by Lucas candies. All opinions, as always, are 100% my own.
Let’s just take an honest moment here. Vacation rocks. Going to work everyday is hard.
I mean, why would anyone want to leave this behind?
Glad we got that part out of the way.
Now, I LOVE my job. If you’ve been around me for more than 10 minutes at a time you’ve probably heard a few stories about my students and the ridiculous and incredible things they do and say. Being their teacher is the greatest privilege and I wouldn’t trade this job for anything right now.
However, after a summer of relaxing, traveling, hanging out at the beach, and sleeping, it’s pretty hard to get back into the swing of things going to work everyday. In my previous jobs I’ve found myself feeling similarly after a vacation. Heck, sometimes even after just a long weekend! At work, I need to be on 100%, energetic, on point, at all times. After a few too many groggy Mondays, I think I’ve finally figured out a good formula for NOT feeling awfully when I return to work.
Step 1- Caffeine. Oh, yes. I don’t normally drive coffee or caffeinated drinks, so on days that I do, my energy level shoots up and I feel good for quite a few hours.
Step 2- Pump up the music. While going through my morning routine I turn up the music. My favorite playlist for this purpose right now is my 2000s hip-hop playlist. Yesss.
Step 3- Small boosts throughout the day. My boost of choice now are these spicy candies from Lucas. When I was first invited to try these candies over the weekend, I have to admit I was a little hesitant. These are the newest creation from the spicy candy brand Lucas.
The Mexican in me is always saying yes to spicy ANYTHING. Spicy candies are usually right up my alley. Mango with chili? OH YES. So I’m not so sure why I even hesitated. It turns out I shouldn’t have been nervous at all. They were SO GOOD. They’re little candy coated balls flavored with watermelon, tamarind and chamoy.
This final step is pretty important because I know, for me at least, I get groggy around 11am. And then again around 2:30pm. And then sometimes around 6pm. Popping a few of these candies in my mouth throughout the day helps me keep alert because of the intense flavors!
And that’s it! I definitely recommend trying them out when you get a chance!
What are your favorite kinds of candy? Are you a sweet, spicy, or sour lover?
Yes, it’s 100% true that this is not where I pictured my life going.
And yes, most of the time, I’m ok with that. I trust that my life will turn out as it is meant. This isn’t to say, however, that I don’t have moments of doubt, worry, and absolute panic.
I worry about where I’ll be next year when my service commitment is over. I worry about where I’ll be 6 months from now in the midst of my second year of teaching. Heck, I worry about a month from now when I’ll be into the school year and hanging out with my students and doing grad school stuff at the same time again.
I sometimes doubt that I’m in the right career.
I doubt that I’m taking the right steps relationship-wise that will lead me to be the most fulfilled.
I wonder if I really can have it all.
I panic when I think about 5 and 10 year plans. (Spoiler- I don’t have one!)
What I mean is that this is all a part of it. Despite the worry, the panic, the doubt- in the end I have to tell myself that it will all work out as it should.
I may not have my life planned out. I don’t have a timeline.