Whether today is about Jesus or bunnies and chocolate or just another Sunday, I hope today is a lovely day for each of you!
For me, this Sunday is for data analysis and spending time with my sweet roommate. I will work out later and watch The Walking Dead and hopefully get to sleep at a decent time tonight.
Last year, I went to church with one of my friends whose family invited me to go with them. It was such a great experience and I’ve been reflecting on that a lot today. That day after church the mom gave me an Easter basket and her dad took us all out to brunch and they were just lovely human beings. What really hit me was the sermon at the church we went to. I’m not a super religious person but the message was still very uplifting. That day I was surrounded with so much love and was filled with energy and life.
After that, I wrote the following.
At one point during the sermon, the pastor said something that stuck with me and hit me like a ton of bricks- in a good way. It also helped that he used a Lord of the Rings analogy, haha.
He talked about, when leaving the theater after seeing the first part of the trilogy, a couple in front of him was discussing the movie. The woman was saying how it was such an awful ending to the story (the movie ends with the characters being in a bad spot, Gandalf has died and things don’t look good). Then the man said to her “Honey, the story isn’t over yet.” And I know it’s a silly reference to a movie but the point is that even though things looked bleak and looked like this is how things are ending, it’s important to realize that this isn’t the end of the story. Not in the trilogy, and not in life.
Whether you believe that’s because Christ is risen and gives the promise of life after death, or you believe that there is nothing after death, it’s important to remember that even while we are here, the story isn’t over.
You may be sitting in the greatest letdown ever, thinking that this is the worst ending to a story ever, but it isn’t over. You have to trust that there is more.
Your story isn’t over yet.
Reflecting on this today has been really helpful. I think that as I get closer and closer to this huge transition in life- leaving college, moving, joining in the real world- I think it’s important to really remember this. The story isn’t over. It seems like the end of a lot because I am leaving everything I’ve ever known (friends, school, etc). But this is just the beginning of something bigger and better than I’ve ever experienced. It’s scary, but it’s exciting to think that there’s always more to my story that remains to be written.
My niece had a baby a couple weeks ago and I’ve been looking through her newborn photos lately. They are so precious. The moment I met this boy I fell in love. He’s got a strong hold on his great-auntie’s heart!
I mean look at him!
Those eyes are always so alert and checking everything out! He is seriously the first newborn I’ve ever heard of being so interested in what is going on. He was even trying to hold his own little head up at only a couple days old! I know, I know, everyone thinks their kid is special and great. But I mean come on…
How could I not think this sweet boy was the most special in the world? I feel so blessed that he was born right when I was around for spring break. I like to think he knew and wanted to meet me. With the job I just accepted, I’ll be close by him and get to see him grow up for at least a few months while I’m there (or however long I stay). I’m a lucky lady.
I don’t think this fully hit me last night, but it’s hitting me now!
I’ve never known anything different than going back to school after summer, but this time I will just keep on working. Like a real grown up human– what?!? I mean, I’ll be teaching, so of course I’ll be in a school, but in a totally different capacity. I think it will be interesting to be on this side of the desk and figure out how this is going to work.
Teaching last summer was a lot of fun, and I definitely enjoyed being around my older brother more. This time I’ll be living on my own for the first time, and really starting a new life. This time there’s no coming back to Agnes after summer! It’s an exciting feeling to know that I’ll be able to do this and that I really made it, but at the same time, I’m terrified! It’ll be a whole different kind of learning as a develop and grow as a teacher and do my best to do right by these kids. People are trusting me to educate their children- Wow!
This life is moving so fast, I’m holding on while I can!
A couple weeks ago I was thinking about starting a blog while I sat relaxing in my parents hotel room in Seattle. Not knowing where I’m going in this world had me overwhelmed with thoughts that I feel like I should share and even more overwhelmed by how incredibly blessed I am in this very moment.
I am healthy. Incredibly so. My surgery over this past winter break has allowed me to heal so much and not be sick near as often this semester. I’m so grateful to have had healthcare and insurance all my life that has blessed me with this health. Getting back into running/jogging recently has made me feel better than ever. I need to keep with this habit!
I have options. SO many options! As scary as it is most days it’s really such a wonderful thing to have so many things to be able to do. I am lucky to have choices about where my future is going. Many people have their futures planned out for them and have no voice in what they’re going to do. I do.
I have a supportive family. Of course we’re not perfect, but they will stand behind me and help me with whatever happens.
My friends are truly the very best in the whole entire world. I am so so lucky to be able to call them my friends and talk to them all the time. They are the best humans I know- smart, sweet, beautiful, kind, giving, patient, and so many other adjectives that are fabulous. And for some reason they let me hang out with them, ha!
I have an excellent education and a job I love. My schooling has been top notch and I’ve worked hard and earned my way through with zero student loans. As close to impossible as that is these days, I feel even luckier. I love working with the children I do and being the one they trust and talk to and depend on. They are so much fun and they keep me creative and young.